I recently noticed a pattern in my dreams. At the end of December I had a dream of being empowered. However, after that were dreams, over and over again, of a helpless me. What gives?
The empowered dream was one of a mystical nature. A man/being suspended approximately, five balls in the air. The balls were all in motion. The goal was to catch one, but it was tricky. When I attempted the task I felt like the energy of my hands affected the balls and they would move. I was intrigued and asked to keep trying, then added “I will figure this out!” The feeling I had was one of curiosity, interest, and confidence.
Since this dream, I have had one dream after another where I am not sure what to do.
One dream involved trying to help my dog get into the same boat as me. She could not get in on her own and I did not want to get in the murky, algae-filled water to help her because I did not want to have to wash my hair later! I finally got in the water. Once in the water my dog and I were swept out by a current. There were two other people present. I called out for help, but they did not move or say anything. They just watched. The current eventually brought my dog and I back to shore.
Character Building Lesson: Act, even if it is inconvenient. My Namis (Namis are collectively my spirit helpers.) are taking care of me. They brought me to shore eventually, but may have done so sooner if I had asked for their help instead of the two people who watched me.
Just in case I did not learn the lesson above, I had the following dream:
My friend and I walked past a car with a crying toddler inside. The father of the toddler was about 20 feet behind us. My attitude was, I assumed, the father would get to the child soon enough. Unlike my lackadaisical-attitude, my friend immediately went over to the car to help the toddler.
Character Building Lesson: Even in my dream I had the thought to be more active and proactive like my friend, instead of my default of waiting to see what happens.
The next dream is under the category “Let us tell you how some of your default characteristics formed.”
As I dreamt this dream, I knew it was a memory and not a dream. Fortunately, I was able to confirm it with my mother. My parents took my siblings and I to Disneyland when I was around 4 years old, my brother 7, and my sister 10. To save some money on one ride, my parents bought tickets for my siblings and I, and not for themselves. They put my sister in charge of taking care of my brother and I. In the dream I have the visual perspective my parents would have had, outside the ride’s loading area, watching as my sister handed out the tickets to my brother and I. I am sure as the youngest of three kids this type of situation occurred again and again, one where I deferred to others to take care of me and know what is best for me.
Character Building Lesson: To realize that thinking others know better than me is my default. Check in with my intuition, always and often, AND listen to it! Act on what I know to be true!
Finally, my most recent dream. It was a long one. Here are the three main ingrained patterns being pointed out to me:
A frightened horse was running, seeking security, but not knowing where to go. I told the person next to me to change their energy, to calm their energy, that this would help the horse. The horse ran passed us, then stopped. Next, he looked at me and began to come towards me. I thought: “I don’t know what to do.”
Character Building Lesson: In my awake state, I know what to do. So this dream is more than step one, two, and three. Oh…this is more symbolic than what I realized. This is a desire to help humans and their horses and I am a little stuck in my awake life right now. I am going to let this one rest for a bit!
The other part of the dream is that a family member’s client has decided to put a horse down because all four hooves have unresolved issues. In the dream, I think “I wonder if I could have helped.” Then I have the feeling of not wanting to get involved.
Character Building Lesson: It is similar to the baby in the car dream, not taking action. Also, the dog and boat dream, not wanting to get my hair wet. Both dreams involve not wanting to be inconvenienced. Thanks Namis! I evidently needed to hear this lesson again!
Lastly, I am with the same family member as above. She wants me to drive a big truck, not a truck I am familiar with, to her client’s place. I am uncomfortable with the prospect of driving the narrow driveway and other terrain to get there. I do not know how to handle the situation because I do not want to disappoint her. I woke up at this point.
Character Building Lesson: I never have to do what I don’t want to do. Even more importantly, there are often win-wins, not either/or’s. In the book “Women Who Run With Wolves” the author writes there are always 4 choices to any dilemma, two opposites, one in the middle, and one to consider and think about. In this case, the two opposites might be: I drive/she drives. The one in the middle, I drive as far as I am comfortable and then we walk. The one to consider: She visits her client later. Done!
I believe the reason I felt empowered in the mystical dream was because this is a fairly new state of being, relative to my entire childhood up through midlife, and not ingrained with poor habits. My spiritual path has been guided well by my teachers. Whereas, I could have used a bit more insight into myself as I was growing up. There was another dream in the mix that I did not share. This other dream showed how I disregarded my intuition as a kid. How I read people and situations constantly, narrating my perceptions with an inner dialog. However, because of my character inclinations I did not tap into these and deferred instead to believing others.
Writing these dreams and thoughts helped me to glean nuggets I don’t think I would have gathered in this relatively short time frame. My “poor” Namis would have had to continue sprinkling me with another barrage of sleep time short and feature length films until the lessons eventually became part of my mindset!
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